Frustrated!

I just had one of those days today!  I am just frustrated.  I wish that I could just win the lottery.  Today my son had a doctors appointment at 4:15.  I left work in plenty of time to get there and I got stuck in traffic, no matter what direction I went there was just more of it.  It took me 2 hours to get home!!!  So frustrating for me.  It would not have been so bad had I not forgotten my cell phone at home.  What did we do without them.  My poor husband and my mom were both worried because it is not like me to be late.  I just really wanted to be at the appointment.  There were other little things too, but those were the two big ones!  I really just needed to vent!  I feel like this is how I spent way too much of my day!

I did however come across a quote while reading today that really spoke to me. 

A woman has got to be able to say, and not feel guilty, "Who am I, and what do I want out of life? -Betty Friedan

I have not read anything written by her, but came across this quote in another book.  I really feel like that is the journey that I am on now.  I am hoping that I will be able to find the path for me.  I am not sure if the one I am on is the right one for me.  I would have never thought that before the arrival of my son.  The perspective changes instantly.  Working right now is a means to an end.  I hope that I can find one that works better for me.  

Unravelling

So, in this journey to find the me that I truly want to be.  The changed and new me that stems from the experiences that I have been through in the past year or so, I stumbled upon the e-course unravelling.  I saw the description and it spoke to me.  I love photography, which is part of it, the other part is writing, which is what I have been trying to work on.  I thought that it would be the perfect thing at this point in my life because I can do it on my time.  It is only a few days in and so far it has been great.  I find myself thinking about photographs and the world around me in general.  It is making me want to stay up past my bedtime and look at all the photos and comment on them.  I think it truly will be good for my soul.

Back to reality

It is back to reality for me!  My dream of being a stay at home mom is over for now, but we'll see what happens.  It was my first full week back at work and it was tough.  The first day wasn't as bad as I thought, but as the week went on it got harder and harder.  The worst was when I left for work on Thursday morning and he was still asleep, and then was only awake an hour when I got home before he was down for the night.  It is very difficult for me, but right now it is what I have to do.  Fortunately there are only a couple of weeks left until summer vacation and then there will be lazy summer days spent with my little man.

Needless to say, I haven't found time to do much of anything this past week except spend time with my two favorite guys and sleep.  I am hoping it will get better and I will get into a groove.  I am so looking forward to the weekend and spending time with them.  Right now I am watching the two of them play and listen to music together!  I love it!

"A baby will make love stronger, days shorter, nights longer, bankroll smaller, a home happier, clothes shabbier, the past forgotten and the future worth living for."

I love these!

I made these for my mom and mother-in-law for Mother's day.  Unfortunately the photos came the day after so they received them late.  I love the way that they turned out.  Another fun project to do.  I cannot take credit for thinking of it.  I found it on Little Birdie Secrets: easy photo blocks .

They are not kidding when they say "easy!"  They are so much fun to make, I could make tons and tons.  Anyone want one?  It's feels good to make things!  I am making more and more.  I am not sure how I am finding the time, but somehow I do.  Between feeding the little man, rocking him to sleep and cleaning bottles.

Through His Eyes

I often look at his eyes and wonder, "What does he see?"  Does he see the world differently?  I imagine that he must.  There is such innocence in him.  He just does not know how crazy this world is.  I look at his eyes and sometimes feel that there is an old soul in there.  It almost seems as if he knows something that we do not.  Through his eyes I see the world differently.  I take more time to look at the beauty around me.  That is what he is doing soaking in everything and looking at everything, and I just wonder, "What does he see?"

Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day to all the mom's out there!  This was my first Mother's Day with a baby.  Last year only a few people recognized the fact that I was a mom.  I didn't have my baby with me, but I felt like a mom.  I was a mom with a broken heart.  We wanted a child, we were ready for a child, but there was something else in store for us.  My heart is healing and it is filled with love for the new man in my life.  He makes me smile no matter what my mood, and now that he is smiling back it is even better.  I know that we both have our angel Lia Rose looking after us.

I had a wonderful day with my family at Roanoke Vineyard on the East End of Long Island.  We had great food and great company.  I got some awesome Mother's Day gifts as well that I need to write about here!  I am wearing one of the two hats that I got from Flood Clothing in Portland.  I had bought a hat for myself while out there last year and just love love love the hats!  My husband also got me a necklace that I am anxiously waiting for!  It is from Gwynnie B Designs  and I know I am going to love it!  I also got some practical gifts like a car charger and a Bluetooth headset, but those were more for the fact that I was supposed to go back to work starting tomorrow.  I am not going because I am having issues with my blood pressure again.  Off to more doctors for me next week.  In a way it is another present for me because I really didn't want to go back yet.

Oh and I also registered for an e-course called Unraveling and am so excited for it!  I think that it will be something really good for me!  I want it to start tomorrow!

I entered you can too

I entered to win this and you can too!  It's on Gwynnie's Blog.  Her jewelery is so pretty! 

I made....

Magnets!  They were easy and fun to make.  Some pretty paper does the trick!  I want to keep making more and more, but I don't know what to do with so many magnets!