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My little guitar hero

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The August Break

I am participating in The August Break again.  Hopefully I will be able to post everyday in August.  I have a feeling the camera in my phone may be getting used often for this.  I enjoyed it last year and am sure I will again!

Black and White

Why so serious???

Sweet

It is an old one, but I was playing around with some pictures for a photo challenge. I really need to start doing more of them again so I can use my camera and keep practicing. Lately though, I have just been enjoying life. I hope you enjoy the picture!

Too long, again!

It has been way too long since I have written here.  I think I have been busy living, which is good.  I don't always have this compelling urge to write at the moment.  I know that it helped me through some tough times, but lately, I have been busy.
 
The past week or so, I have realized that my baby is not a baby anymore.  He is really coming into himself and is really a little man these days.  He doesn't want to snuggle so much at bedtime, and he asks for his crib.  He points and says "rib" if it wasn't so cute, it would make me want to cry a little.  He is not taking a bottle at all anymore and is asking for "mum-mum" and walking to his high chair when he is hungry.  Each day there are new words and I am simply amazed at how fast he is learning.  He's practically running around now, he's getting so quick.  He is enamored with his daddy, which is absolutely adorable, except that he forgets all about me.

I am so excited to spend my summer with this little man.  I know that it is going to be amazing.  There will be lots of bubbles and water play.  Speaking of bubbles, I think this picture is one of my new favorites, aside from pictures of the little guy.

 

I like this one too!

 

And of course, some baby feet!!!

Hopefully next time won't be so far away!

A day to ourselves

Last weekend my husband and I had a full day to ourselves and it really was much needed. We dropped the little guy at my parents and hopped on a train to NYC. We went to the Rangers-Flyers game which was fun. It was the first Ranger game I had gone to. After the game we went to Chelsea Brewing Company for lunch. The beer was great, the view was beautiful, but the food was just ok. It didn't really matter though. We talked about all sorts of things and it was nice to do it uninterrupted.  We then took a stroll down 14th street to Union Square and talked about how we need to come in when the weather is warmer with the little guy. We strolled right to Heartland Brewery where I had the most delicious porter. The name was even great "not tonight honey porter"  Yum.  I did miss my little one, but it was nice to have some grown-up time.

More time

Lately I have been feeling that there just is not enough time in the day. It isn't a new feeling for me, but it seems multiplied lately. First, I want to take the time to be the best mom that I can be. That, it seems, takes up the majority of my time that I am not at work. Work is the necessary evil that takes up so much of my day. Do not get me wrong, I love my job and the people that I work with, but maybe if it were three days a week or if the commute was not just about an hour.  It takes a lot out of me. Sprinkle in the daily and weekly tasks and there doesn't seem to be much time for anything else.

I am very lucky to have a fabulous husband who does everything he can to help out. This is huge!  I certainly could not pull off parenthood without him. We are working together to keep it together.

There are a few things I will be working on. I will keep you posted.

snowday

This is what my back yard looks like today. I am enjoying the day off with the little man.  It's a bonus day as I like to call it.  Extra time with that little one means so much.  The only thing that could have made it any better is if my husband was home with us.  We missed him today!

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Lia Rose

Today marks two years since we lost Lia. The past two years have been filled with ups and downs, a roller coaster of emotions and feelings for sure.

I am blessed with so many wonderful things in my life. I am at peace with what I went through. I always will have a deep sadness in my heart about it, but I am still at peace with it. She is integrated into our lives in the least expected ways. I know I carry her with me always.

I love you baby girl and you are missed.

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My one word for 2011

I've been seeing so much about choosing a word for the year.  I have tossed it around in my head and I think my word needs to be INSPIRE.  I want to be inspired and would love to inspire people.  I will see how this unfolds for the year.   I will do my best to focus on this word and hope that I will be inspired and be able to inspire others. 

I am hopeful for one of the best years yet.  After the ups and downs of the past two years, I need a great one!  Here's to 2011!!!

Time away, for a few reasons...

The holidays have had me very busy and a cold, a horrible one, the week before didn't help.  I was feeling run down and needed a break.  I am feeling better, still exhausted, but that is how the holidays always work.  It was a fantastic Christmas.  We had a blast with JP even though he really didn't know what was going on.  I received some very thoughtful gifts and so much appreciate them.  I saw family and friends from near and far and my house feels like it has been a revolving door of people in and out.  It has been great but tiring.  It has also been a good diversion as this time of year is bittersweet for me.  I think that is why I am finding the need to write.

Today marks two years from the doctor's appointment that may have altered my life completely.  Today was the day that I went to the doctor at 17.5 weeks pregnant and was told by the doctor that was in that day that I was fine, round ligament pain was causing my discomfort.  I was naive, I left the office saying, this is normal, no sonogram to check anything out.  I know better now, I know to trust my instincts.  Two days later I was admitted into the hospital because of a degenerating fibroid that caused the loss of Lia Rose.  I picture her in my mind growing up as I watch my friends daughters who would be so close to her age.  It is hard, but she sent the most perfect little boy for us.  He would not be here if she was and now I cannot imagine life without him.

This Christmas I was able to put her ornament on the tree along with his.  I have a pregnant bear ornament that I received as a gift the Christmas I was pregnant with her.  It upset me too much last year to put it up, but this year, I took it out and wrote her name and birthday on the back and hung it right in front of the tree.  It is another step.  Then I thought about the fact that I don't have one for JP and realized that I was glad, it is something I have just for her.  He will have many more ornaments to come, but that one, is hers.