It is a beautiful Autumn morning here on Long Island. I am sitting outside on the front stoop watching my husband rake out the grass to prepare to seed the lawn. The little one is napping, hopefully a good one. I am enjoying the quiet of a Sunday morning in our neighborhood. Sitting outside with my computer and sipping a cup of coffee.
This morning I couldn't sleep. I feed the little guy, and then I was wide awake. As I lay there I started to think about the quiet moments that I have lately. The one that stands out the most is my commute. As I lay there, I thought about how the morning commute I usually tumble all sorts of things in my head. Lately thoughts of Lia Rose have been abound. It could be because one of my very best friends will be having her baby girl any moment now. It could be just because. They are not necessarily sad thoughts. I often think of her and what she may be doing right now. I think of her taking care of her "baby" brother and her mom and dad.
Yesterday I went to lunch with a friend that I met through my new mommy group. She has a daughter just a few weeks older than JP. She is 14 weeks pregnant again. She had a difficult time the first time and never thought she would get pregnant. Our bodies are amazing. While we were at lunch, I was giving JP his lunch, and he wasn't really eating, but was pretty cute. A gentlemen at the next table told me that he was very cute and then proceeded to ask me one of the most difficult questions, "Is he your first?" I always hesitate when asked, never quite knowing what to say. I usually just say yes, but it always make me feel a bit guilty. He isn't really my first, my first is an angel. It is so hard to just explain that.
I have been also trying to figure out how I want to finish decorating JP's bedroom. I have found several prints on Etsy that I truly love and am trying to think of the best combination to do an art wall for him. I think it would be so much fun!
Wow I feel like my thoughts have been wandering all over the place. Anyway, it's been a great weekend and hopefully we'll get to a harvest festival somewhere today! We'll see what the day brings!
*hugs*
ReplyDeleteLia is taking care of you guys, looking out for you, John and JP. When Jack giggles at nothing, or yells into the wind as we're walking, I like to think that its his Grandpa, my father in law, whispering to him or telling him something funny. I know he's all around us, keeping watch, and helping the good things happen in our lives.
I hope JP took a good nap. And I too, treasure those quiet moments. They don't happen often with a little one!